me and my superiority

I know I'm not supposed to speak
But I have this superiority in me
To cover up the dirt and to feed this emotion
I know you probably don't want to hear
how I love you, how I need you and how I want you

Is it because I'm me?
Or maybe it's due to our history.
Well I don't know much about so many things
But allow me to love you

In all the complexity of myself
I find it not so hard to trust
You and what you do to me
You see I feel this superiority in me
But I know I'm not allowed
to say out loud what you already know

I love you.

amazon warrior.

Pure soul, brave heart
I know your life is hard
Fighting amazon warrior, don't lose faith
because it's not too late

To be saved and swept away
Hush now it will all be ok
Let me hold you, cry if you need to
I'll do what you want me to do

Naked you, Naked me
just wait and you'll see
Me in my shiny armor, blinding sun
In the end, we've won


Dedicated to sporty.

Tired (by K's choice)

Show me where you found your faith and
Does it help you sleep at night
I am not that complicated
I just need some time

Because it doesn't feel right
And I'm mostly very tired

Life is easy when you fake it
Right until you realize
Your happiness is unrelated
To anything you have inside

And it doesn't feel right
And I'm mostly very tired

Every chance I get to distract myself
I won't try to convince myself
That there's anything for real or
That we're sure of what we feel

Quiet time is underrated
I still can't stand to be alone
That might be why I'm so unstable
Barely able to hold on

And I just don't feel right
And I'm mostly very tired

Voorbij

IK voel je, om me heen, ik denk alleen aan jou
Ik hoor je stem Ik zie je, overal, ik neem je altijd mee
Waar ik ook ben
Zo tastbaar, en zo dichtbij, hou jij je vast aan mij
Waar ik ben, daar ben jij, je bent eigenlijk nooit weggeweest
Als een schaduw volg je mij

Door mijn huis, door mijn hoofd,
ik zou vrij zijn maar dat ben ik niet
Het is wel over, maar nog niet voorbij

Ik weet niet, wat het is, maar ik mis je zo
Wat ik ook doe
Onzichtbaar, maar zo dichtbij, hou jij je vast aan mij

Waar ik ben, daar ben jij, je bent eigenlijk nooit weggeweest
Als een schaduw volg je mij
Door mijn huis, door mijn hoofd, ik zou vrij zijn maar dat ben ik niet
Het is wel over, maar nog niet voorbij

Zijn jou dagen, zonder mij, beter dan ons leven samen
Ik mis je, dag en nacht, zo onverwacht

Waar ik ben, daar ben jij, je bent eigenlijk nooit weggeweest
Als een schaduw volg je mij
Door mijn huis, door mijn hoofd, ik zou vrij zijn maar dat ben ik niet
Het is wel over, maar nog niet voorbij

the light

Dark passion
Rising before my eyes
It's too dark and I can't find the light
Fear has taken me once
Never left me since
The constant agony, oh the agony!

In front of my eyes,
I'm to blind to see
Where the light is, help me find
Find my match

Light my darkness and lead me safe
into your arms
I cry, I scream, I can not see the light!
Dark passion is eating me alive
And I'm still searching
everlasting you, take me to the light.

the peace of silence

Freedom of my mind
complete wreckage of my once burning heart
once spring, now quiet winter
cold damaged soul.

Light covered up in mist
where are you?
Now I'm alone, trying to sleep
forget, forget, why can't I...

Confessions of my troubled self
make me even sink more
I know all, yet I know nothing

There you are, naked and covered
in red pure blood, dead.
I lay beside you, waiting for
everlasting silence.

I know all, yet I know nothing
I feel all, yet I feel nothing
What once was, is now gone
I killed us, a burden of my past.

I lay beside you, naked goddess
Only you know how I loved you
Only I know how I love you
I lay beside my memory of you

And die into silence.

mental notes

Mental notes are mine alone
I cannot read or listen
So I look into my brave heart
To find help, to find what is lost

Write like no one did

Moving souls, flying emotions
I cannot speak or touch
Here in my mind everything is
CHAOS

But what does my blind eye see?
A mental note of me to myself!
I cannot read it, hear it
speak or touch

"Hush now, it will all be ok"

The mental note said.