dead moviestar, living starlight

in the loom of day
Open eyes,a lot of noise I hear
start the movie that already begun
wait, wait and see the world falling down
this isn't -this can't be-
it is. -oh stupid fool!-

Hang on little one
I'm here while you cry in the water
I didn't planned to go, I love you
don't be so angry,we share time.

Red painfully red, everything in my body bleeds
hang on, don't go yet, I'm coming to you
feeling completely numb, I'm coming, don't go yet
I need to see, need to see what's inevitable
Fuck you, fuck you! -what have you done?-
you were not supposes to leave me yet.

hush now mini me, I know you're hurt
I waited for everyone, for you to come
before I go, there's our unspoken language
Whisperings in the subconcious of sleep
I stand next to the shell, next to you -please dont cry-

Appearance of lost family, strange moments await
and there you are, bruised and blue
asleep for now, soon to be dead
It is you, it really ís you, fuck.
Open your eyes, -please- don't you dare leaving!
I know so much, but I can't help you, I can't make you better
feeling helpless, abandoned by you
But all is to late, I kiss you goodbye before you must go

This wasn't supposed to happen
undergo the feelings you have little one
I'll be there, I've always been there when you needed me
I'll look out for you -I promise-

The day ends in fireworks and worldwide party
-typicall you- to go with a blow
Never cried that much as I did that week
But you laid there, cold and quiet not able to comfort me
One last goodbye, the last I'll see of you

this is not goodbye, this is not the end
You'll see in time what I mean
but for now, I'll wait in the shadows
to make my great appearance at the end of your time
be brave little niece, you know I love you.

Days go by, not one without reliving everything
sometimes I cry because it hurts
sometimes laughter for all the stupid things you did
But I still miss you, the great one, the mega me.
I live my life , you live trough me.